Friday, 14 May 2010 @ 05:13
What's in life for me ?
I sometimes do think deep inside my mind- What do I live for or rather who do I live for actually?
It really ain't easy going through these stages of life. I really wonder what would happen if the present doesn't happen in life. What would have become of me ? Am I still the one whom I used to be? Am I on the correct path where I'm heading? Would I still behave the way I am now? My mind's in a whirl and I'm confused. REALLY confused.
I often think, what should i do for the ones I loved. But then, I had forgotten to reciprocate. Do they appreciate what I've done for them? Am I important in their lives? Do they really spare just a little thought for me? I wonder... I thought really hard. I always do my very best into helping them. But what do I get in the end? - Misery and tons of sufferings.
Seriously, I don't know who I really am anymore. People couldn't understand what I've been through yet they claimed to know how I felt. I really do help. But these thoughts just made me blank! Should I lend a helping hand or just walk away and pretend that none of those things have happened?
I used to love my life. My life was colourful and with many interesting stuff all around me. I guess I took things for granted, and that's how I had gotten myself into this situation today. Now, I'm just a plain, dull person....